Not the One
Ever been in love with the wrong person?
You probably have.
I know I have.
A few weeks ago I found out - unsurprisingly - that the person I previously liked had feelings for my friend. Ouch.
At the same time, I wasn’t surprised - just shocked. You might be thinking to yourself - that doesn’t make sense.
It actually does. I was not surprised by the fact that I liked someone who liked someone else. It’s not the first time its happened. It happened about a year ago and it also happened during the summer.
No, this is not a pity-party.
Our Lord has just made it incredibly clear to me that I’m not meant for that person. I’m not.
It’s hard to take a spoonful of that dose of… humility? It hurts and aches and, in some small way, you wish you were the person that he was looking at. That you were The One meant for him. But you’re not.
That doesn’t mean you’re worth any less. There’s a big temptation for us women to think that because he didn’t like me, then I must not be that pretty, special, smart, beautiful, or talented. It’s not true.
I’ve done it to myself and it only ends up making me feel so much worse. The enemy is trying to feed you those lies. He doesn’t want you to know how incredibly beautiful, smart, special, and talented you are. He doesn’t want you to find out how much Our Lord lovingly gazes at you and is proud of you. You are beautiful beyond words.
As a friend of mine put it “beauty itself is entranced by you.”
Wow. Beauty Himself is entranced by you. You! If our minds could wrap ourselves around that, we would realize that our worth has nothing to do with if a boy/man likes us. Instead, we would walk with grace and confidence, resting in the concrete fact that Our Lord is in love with us.
It hurts to know that you loved/cared-for the wrong person? Absolutely.
Will the pain go away instantly by this realization? No.
Will we be more confident in His love for us by placing ourselves within His loving arms? Yes.
Don’t give up. Keep loving because in the end you will realize that it was worth it. So worth it.